Long time no talk! I'm aware I haven't made a post in a very very fucking long time. Not that I have anyone who checks up on this regularly or anything but…I didn't exactly know what direction I wanted to go in terms of what I wanted to write about or what I wanted this blog to represent. I'm starting to realize that writing nothing is probably the worst thing I can do…so I'm just going to start writing whatever I want. It may be about beauty or fashion. But it might not be.
I obviously want this blog to reflect me as a person… and there's a 99% chance that whoever will read this does NOT know me, so let me put this out there: I'm nuts. My brain is in about a billion different places about every other minute of every single day of my life. I'll attempt to cover on only the interesting components of that…but I also want to be honest. So let's just get into it.
HONESTLY: A large part of the reason I haven't written in so long was because since my last post I've been going through some very painful shit. The relationship I was in when I started this blog ended quite a few months ago and we've been very back and forth ever since, fighting then making up over and over, lots of hurtful things said and then taken back - hashtag dysfunctional. It's all very personal and I'm not sure if posting this for the world to potentially read is the best move.. But again I just want to be honest and as open as possible.
Let me just be frank. I came here to complain.. I'm just gonna throw this shit out into the universe and YEAH.
- I'm sad. Like really feel alone more than ever right now and the kicker is, I don't really want to do anything to fix it. I just feel stuck.
- I'm supposed to get my period in the next day or so and I feel HUGE. I can't stop eating. I've eaten so much bullshit today it's embarrassing. Let me recap quickly: Arby's, Cheerios (why?), carmel popcorn, Oreos, spaghetti, chips with cream cheese (jesus).. oh and a Reese's egg. What the fuck.
- I have a headache. Actually I have a headache pretty much every day but I don't want to go to a real doctor to have it checked out because I'm confident they will tell me I have high blood pressure (SHOCKER) and put me on daily meds for it.. NO BUENO.
- It's rainy and depressing outside.
- The warm weather (which I am NOT complaining about) has brought out lots of bugs. Ants and stink bugs specifically…goddammit.
I apologize for the bitching.. I'm gonna try this again tomorrow and hopefully a better/more upbeat post will magically flow from my fingertips.
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